FUCK FUCK FUCK.

Haha nice title. Seems to bring everyone out. I had a moment of clarity yesterday. It was more of an actual really fucking bad later half of the day. Did all my errands. Laundry grocery shopped. Stuff in the house. I made a list of shit I forgot that I gotta go back for. Simple enough. But then I was doing my online classes. And then taking some of what I got and applied it to something else I was doing and shit went sideways. Maybe it was the day drinking. On the lamb for 30 days as of right now.

Maybe it was my brain getting at me with some other things I have been thinking on heavily lately about folks that ain’t here no more. I’m not fuckin sure. It actually got nuts and I locked my iPads and. Computer in the pew pop lock box and was buggin. Even took out my pocket bible I got from big homie on circuit. Read a few things that I needed to cross reference.

Sometimes moods and to much time alone in your own head is a dangerous thing. Especially when think like an old tv show and have those lil voices in your ear the halo on one side and horns on the other.

I have always been a horns on the left and right. And a little self conscious check in keeping my malicious bs in line. It has been a crazy year or so as some have read in these blogs and posts and in some small ways in person. A lot has gone on in front of and behind the scenes.

Some talk this talk of checking on folks and backing homies and boys and all that. Most y’all are fuckin full of shit. You might help the person you have near you that you gotta but you do it for yourselves and your own mental peace not because someone is or could actually be down and need a word or a

Yesterday I could have used some of my crew and it was actually not serious when I think about it today but when in a moment that’s huge and there was fucking crickets. On top of folks chasing me down for shit I’m doing for other people.

I’m not a mean person but my kindness is not going as far as it used to going forward. As a person with a camera. As a person that works. As a person that socializes. The only people that get that from me is my family. And maybe 2 or 3 folks on the dot in the middle of the circle

They get that because they have had an effect on how my mind flows over the last few years. How I see things in front of me. The clarity that should be but wasn’t. “BLAH BLAH BLAH.” As Jer would say.

Ok so I’m done ranting. Been off for last 2 weeks. Did a lot of stuff I needed to for myself. Around the home taking care of things that haven’t been done or procrastinated upon for a while. Got out with my camera but didn’t look for anything to snap on literally just went. Seems to work so I’m gonna be doing more of it. Carefree wander where I wish and if nothing comes of it oh well so if my followers dwindle. Or know-one likes my shit or postings. That’s ok I stopped actually looking at that stuff a while back.

I won’t sound ungrateful it’s awesome that I actually have a following for the stuff I do with a camera. Thank you sincerely to your all past, present, and future on all levels. Even folks I don’t roll with on the regular anymore. Miss some of yas and not others but wish all well and thank you if we created or documented together. That’s what it was.

Ok next weekend I’ll be in Burlington. American Breed is having an open house at the barbershop combined with a bike night. Yes it’s the same day as Not your father’s show in Easton. I will be dispersing myself to both locations one day. Followed by Holy Black possibly Sunday. Or not. I’ll see how I feel. If you made your way to New Hampshire for Idle Hands hope all went well for builders that will be showing there today Sean, Kevin, and Chris good luck. May the best bike take it home and the rest still deserve the cheer.

I don’t know why but today I need something different that i haven’t done in along time. With a solid down to earth crowd.

Enjoy your day. The old me is def back after yesterday and it’s feels good.

Watch for it.